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Thursday, February 28, 2008

No, I'm not referring to Martin Luther King Jr's speech for the civil rights movement.
What I'm talking about is a dream for myself, a dream I've wanted since I was really young, before middle school. Ever since I could remember, I had wanted to be in the spotlight. I always wanted people to adore me for me, not for what I have. At first I wanted to become a singer, but I realized this, I don't have much of a voice. Sure, I can sing alto pretty well, but I'm not where I want to be in singing, plus I want people who are born to sing to sing, it's just not for me.

So long 2007... 

This year has been one of the best years I've ever had, then again, this year has had some downfalls along with it. For starters, I began 2007 at Megan's house, and threw paper confetti in the air with her brothers, and we toasted to have a better year than last year, and we had sparking fizzy grape juice. It was one to remember. Then Ohio State was in the BCS title game, and they lost. Let's put it this way, I believe they cursed the rest of the Ohio professional teams to get close to winning a championship, because they lost first. But hey, I couldn't do anything about it.
I also lost my great-grandma this year. I mean, we weren't even close at all, she didn't even know who I was after the year 2000. Even though we weren't close, I'm glad I knew her when she remembered me, and I miss her. I didn't shed at tear at her funeral, and it's the first time I've ever seen my grandpa cry. Idk, I just felt so bad for not being realyl supportive.
Then the disaster rolled along; my dog Rocky passed away. I was so heart broken, depressed, and felt so horrible I didn't know what to do. I was the last one to see him alive, the last time I saw him was in the vet's office being taken care of by the vet. I gave him so many hugs, kisses, and I started crying because I felt it was the last time I was going to see him. When I found out he passed away, I couldn't handle it. I was the one who took it the hardest out of anyone. I cried for days, and I didn't care about school anymore after that point. Rocky always made my day better, and just seeing him sick, probably made me feel worse. Seeing him becoming nothing but skin and bones, just made me feel horrible. We couldn't do anything about it, we tried making him eat, but he wouldn't. I remember that I had to help him onto my bed, and he wouldn't let me, because he used to all by himself before. The night before he died, he slept in my room, on my bed with me. I couldn't sleep, I cuddled him like no other. I miss my dog sooo much. I won't ever get another black lab, he just meant too much to me to ever replace. I miss my boo-boo =[.
After the school year, I had a fantastic summer. The first week was boring because everyone was on vacation, so all I did was tan outside all week. Then Megan came home and every weekend or so I spent the weekend with her because her family would go up to Lake Erie to fish, and let me tell you, those fish are yummy =] I went to my first Indians game that I remembered going to this year. They won, and it was so much fun to just see all these beautiful boys play their hearts out. I went to about 7 games this season, and they won all but one. I must say, Megan and I are goodluck charms, haha.
In July, I went with Megan's family up to Lake Erie for the 4th of July. That was an interesting trip haha. Megan's brothers just loved to bug me, but hey, it wouldn't of been fun if they didn't, lmao. On the 4th, we went on a boat ride to see the firework at
Cedar Point, those weren't what I expected at all. Then we go back to the house, and Megan's step dad and her brothers were shooting off fireworks from the deck. They even got the cops called on them, which was funny haha. But it was all fun =] We then went to Cedar Point, and I got to ride the Maverick, that's one amazing ride haha. I finally rode the Dragster, omgsh that was amazing! The whole trip was fun =]
Megan, Craig and I went to an Indians game for Craig's birthday. It was interesting, because he was loud and obnoxious in the car, but quiet at the game. Megan and I were confused, and kept looking at him like he was a stranger. Then out of nowhere, he did this funny hand gesture that we won't let him forget haha. When we were going to see Craig's work, he was talking about non-sense and Megan just shout," CRAIGGGGGGGGGGGGG!" hahahaha I think that just made the whole night right there haha. But what was more amazing was that Megan, Liz and I saw the Indians Clinch the AL Central, it was the best game I've ever seen, and it was so amazing. We were sitting next to the coolest people ever haha. We had a blast =]
Marching band started. It was so different being a senior, and getting away with stuff haha. Showing up late to the last day of band camp was amazing. We ran 2 laps around the field, but it was so worth it. And we also demonstrated the eagle stomp for the underclassmen =] Then my birthday rolled along, it was amazing. The band sang, twice haha. And the next day, we went to an Indians game and got FREE blankets =] I had a wonderful birthday. Senior night then came along, I almost started crying playing the Alma Mater. But hey, I'll never forget the good memories =]
This year ended the same way as it started, I was at Megan's with her family, except we had a new resolution - for a Cleveland Sports team to win a Championship. I hope it happens this year. I won't forget the many car rides with Liz, or the amazing memories I've had with my friends. I have met lots of people this year, whom I'll never forget. I hope you all have an AMAZING 2008 and be safe =] It's scary that from today, I graduate in 6 months, but I'm going to make the best of it.

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Rocky, January 17th, 2001 :(
Current mood: sad

this is the day my dog was born, and he soon is to be put to sleep.

well my mom and dad think something is seriously
wrong with my dog, beside the insanity he has.
they think he is sick with something like cancer,
because all of a sudden, he lost a lot of weight,
and strength, and can't climb up simple stairs
without any help. i just dunno what to do.
i know he has to be put to see within the next
month or so, and its so hard. i never lost a dog
before, i only lost a cat, whom i loved and died from
cancer, and i lost fish and hamsters, but they
weren't that close to me. i mean, i've had this dog
since i was in the 5th grade, when he was a puppy,
when he was the nicest dog ever, and was the perfect
dog there would ever be, besides heidi that is.
i mean, last year, he has changed, and its so hard,
turning against us, growling, his mom was like that,
and she was put down a year after my dog was born.
and we're afraid he is like that now, from his mother.
i love my dog, but i don't want him to be living in pain.
i just want him in a better place, even if its not with me.
i never lost a dog, i don't know what its like, and im rteary
eyed right now, and its going to be worse when he isn't
here anymore. when i cried he was there, and he isn't
there for me anymore, because he growls and shows his teeth.
but what can i do, i just don't know.
getting my wisdom teeth out tomorrow doesn't help.
at least i have another dog, rocco, who will help me with this.
we call rocky rocko, so rocco the other dog will help me recover
from this, i just hope i don't have to deal with this in like a week or so, because ill be out of school crying, and yeah.
well this is long, but thanks for reading, for those who care.

Friday, December 22, 2006

happy tears

days like this is the kind of day i wish i knew my great-grandfather.

he was very musical, played the piano, organ, and he was the most amazing person in my moms life as a child, and she said i'm just like him, i have a kind heart, personality, muscial abiltiy, all of that. it brought tears to my eyes that he couldn't meet me in the hospital because he was so sick. he had his camera all ready, and it made me cry, like so hard. silly i know, but i know that man is watching my every move, watching me carry on my life without him here with me. my mom knew he stayed alive to see me, and he saw pictures of me because the staff in the hospital wouldn't let me come see him, he did see pictures of me. he died 5 weeks later, and it broke my heart that he never saw me. i'm sensative like he was, and everything about me is just like him. he was the true italian, and i wish i woudl of met him so bad. i never met him, and i miss him. if i had one day with someone who died, it'd be him for sure. i just i had one day to spend with him, and it would be worth it and worthwhile. i'd do anything and everything possible. i just wish he could of lived with 2000 the millenium like he wanted to. he was 10 years short of that battle. i saw pictures of him today, and almost lost it, and i never met him. my mom said he's a part of me, and that's why i started crying. i know he's watching over me, and he doesn't want me to cry, but it's hard when i never met him. i can't wait for the day that i get to meet him in heaven, i mean i don't wanna die, but when i die, the best thing about it is i'll finally meet my great-grandfather. it'd be the best day ever, and i can't wait. i love him so much, and i feel very close to him, now for the rest of my life, i will thikn of him while playing the piano, or the clarinet, or even sing, because he was so musical. i didn't mean to breakdown in front of my family, but i couldn't help it. he has a piece of my young heart and always will. until the day i die, i'm going to be thinking about him, and how lucky i am to have such a marvalous man as a great-grandfather. if it wasn't for him, i doubt i would be playing the piano or the clarinet today. t

thank you to my great-grandfather albert nicholas mucci sr.

i'll always love you, even know we never met.

thanks for being an inspitation in my life, i love you and miss you so much 

its offical,
my dog has passed away over the weekend.
i was so sad, he was my puppy, we did everything together.
i always took him for a walk because he was my walker, and walked
normally compared to heidi, who is old and slow, and rocco who is young
and hyper. he was inbetween, not too fast, not too slow. i miss him so much.

we took him to the vet, and they said he had diabetes, and thats why hes been losing
all of this weight he had, he was 103 and when we weighed him for the last time, he was
58 lbs. i almost cried.  but before when we last saw rocky at the vet, rocky kept putting
his head on my lap, he did that when i was sad all the time, and basically with his head
on my lap, he told me that it'll be ok, and with his head on my lap numerous times that
night, he was telling me that it'll be ok, and that he won't be here for much longer.
he seriously wouldn't stop doing that, and when i gave him a big hug before i last saw him,
he gave me his, i love you, look, and i cried right then and there. i thought he was coming home monday, and i would be all excited for him to come back, but i found out he passed away in his sleep at the vet hospital. they gave me his collar and leash back, and i won't ever use that leesh for another dog. i put rocky's collar on my rear view mirror, because he loved car rides, and when i see that collar, i remember that happy times we had in the car, and it makes me smile, and i feel that he is still there with me panting, having his head out of the window, yeahh it makes me smile, not cry.

i miss him so much, but i know now hes not in pain anymore, and hes watching over me and my other dogs. heidi, who has been here since rocky was a puppy, knows hes gone, and shes all mopey and sad. she knew he was sick when she saw him last, poor heidi. the  good news is, rocoo is rocky in spirit i believe. rocco never jumped on the couch before, and now he has since rocky passes away, he acts like rocky in every wya possible, and lays in rockys spot, which he never had until recently. so basically, its like rocky never left. hes just here in spirit. people may of hated rocky for being protective, but thats their problem. he was the best big dog i ever had, and his love for me grew everyday. yes i miss him, but im glad hes not here and sick anymore. ilu rocky <333.

www.myspace.com/adriene_renee

to see picture of me and rocky when he first came to the house,
its not on this computer.

omgsh

glenoaks AMAZING.

wooo :)

GLENOAK BASKETBALL GOING TO STATES!

AND IM GOING TO COLUMBUS WITH MY
BEST FRIEND MEGAN!
WOOHOO!
ITS GOING TO BE SO FUN!

and firestone was doing stupid chants,
and had a fat cheerleader, ewwww.
and they all were back except on girl,
and they kept thinking they were going to win,
well WRONG they were.

and glenoak's student section was like,

NO SCHOOL FRIDAY!

as a chant, haha.

i love the game, and i went with megan and liz woo :)

megans brother jack stuck his legs out of the window opn the highway!

hahahaha it was hilarious. he did that wednesday too, haha i love

megans family.

anyways,

im off and i probably wont update until AFTER the state championship WIN!

ok well i have really been neglecting this thing, but oh well.

lately i've been in a good mood.

last month with all the snowdays really kept me getting through everything, like stress from school and whatnot.

but anyways,

liz spent the night last night, and is still sleeping but i doubt for much longer, haha.

oh a  better note,

the indians start playing soon, and im so excited for april.

april too for going to the cavs game with megan, yay.

glenoaks basketball is like awesome, and i hope they go to states, and win, omgsh that'll be awesome. i wanted to go to the game tonight, but it was sold out before the school day was over, arghhh.

i know they'll win anyways :)

and i recently got awii and its so fun. weeeeeee!

anyways,

im done here. bye.